Sunday, April 25, 2010
"All men are created equal and are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights." - Thomas Jefferson
Hiiiiiiiiii. :) Really? o.O I doubt so. If everyone was born equal, why are people biased towards the boys? I mean it's getting better now but... you know last time. ^^ *sigh* Life is never fair so don't bother arguing about rights. Do you think I should give up aiming to become a lawyer. You know fighting over trivial things. I'm tired. Of everything. When I try to find out something, I get accused of seeking attention and stuff like that. I'm sick of it already. Why why why??? It's like... And now I'm called a bitch behind my back. Don't think I don't know because I do. You know what? I only let MBS-ians view my blog. No CCHMS-ians. You know why? Do you get the idea? I'm being tortured now. Both physically and mentally. What do I mean? As in... *sigh* Never mind. Forget it. You know what? I feel that people don't have the rights to call others a bastard or bitch. Because you might not know yourself... You might also be a bastard/bitch. So why? Why do you want to call others a bitch? Does that make you feel superior? You only make other people upset. Why? Must life be filled with hatred? The three days you weren't in school... I was elated. Not like I'm gloating over your misfortune or is that retribution for being mean to me? Haha. I know the two days I didn't go to school, you were practically in cloud nine but I don't know that. *sigh* (Note: Count the numbers of *sigh* I have in this post... If you get it right, you MIGHT get something from me. ^^) <-- I was joking. I know 6 Joy'09-ians had been backing me up and I'm really happy. Thanks. Really thank you guys. Even the boys did something. :) I have sorted out my thinking in my sleep? By the way, I had been sleeping loads these few days. Lol. No use hating everyone when people don't even care. Do it the Weilin's way. Save my energy to survive. ^^ Don't care about those bitches who love to call the others bitches. I think in a way, that girl I'm talking about is acting cool. She just wants to be in the popular crowd and that makes me puke. She thinks she is pretty. I especially can't stand the fact that people thinks she is clever, rich etc. Those little things that make you envious or something. Actually, I feel that she is sorta ugly. YUCKKKKKKKKKK ~ Not that I'm saying I'm pretty or what. It's just that... Can't she look into the mirror before insulting people? As in insulting people in her heart. I know it all. She is the one who flirts! Why can't people see that? That girl who thinks I flirt with the one she likes. Please... Look clearly! Your friend is there flirting with your "beloved"! Why must life be so complicated? Live without the boys! Do you know how complicated it is? 100%! I don't think I can ever survive in CCHMS. Because... it's like a place without love and care unlike MBS. To think I... I didn't even treasure MBS. :( WHY? I'm regretting it like hell now. Feeling very confused now. People changed me. Unknowingly. I don't want to. I'm like eating the humble pie and now I realised that I shouldn't. I should be myself! The cheerful one. Not someone who is all negative. I don't like being negative. So what? No one cares.
I'M SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING ALREADY!!!!!!!!!! :(
Lyrics of 21 Guns. ^^ Enjoy!!! I realised it speaks all I need to say. Haha.
Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating
Does the pain weigh out the pride
And you look for a place to hide
Did someone break your heart inside
You're in ruins
One, twenty-one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty-one guns
Throw up your arms, into the sky
You and I
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
And your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
One, twenty-one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty-one guns
Throw up your arms, into the sky
You and I
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stoneWhen it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins
One, twenty-one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty-one guns
Throw up your arms, into the sky
One, twenty-one guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, twenty-one guns
Throw up your arms, into the sky
You and I
The part highlighted in pink is the part I love the most but it's like... :)
Conclusion of my post: Do not call people a bitch anyhow. If you don't know if you are one too. So shut your gap! ^^
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
12:58 PM
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Some of the truths I discovered during Physics lesson on Thursday? ^^
P.S I have been VERY negative these few days so decide if you wanna carry on reading. :)
1. Human nature is UGLY.
2. People are SELFISH.
3. Everyone wants the best for himself/herself.
4. I HATE everyone.
4. I have no emotions from NOW on.
5. Everyone is out to BULLY me.
6. I am hated.
7. I am NEVER gonna survive anything.
8. I am never gonna believe anyone anymore.
9. I SUCK, that is why.
P.S I omitted some of the truths because I think it is sorta private. ^^ So how is it? Great eh? So far I have only shown the list to Mei Hang and she agrees. YAY For the first time? == She said her negative side was not... ARGH WHATEVER!
People are SELFISH FREAKS, for your information. Erm... Let me give some evidence to my above point. ^^ LOL
1. When I speak, no one listens. (When I don't speak, people said I was being cold or WHATEVER!!!)
2. When I sleep, people speak LOUDLY and disturb me. <-- attacking my IDIOTIC family I hate my maternal side. THEY SUCK! Maybe including my mum. She does that too. She just woke me up just now by speaking damn loudly. They suck ttm! :)
3. When I'm not ready to go out, they wanna go out. When I wanna go out, they just... FORGET IT!!!
4. People treat me as invisible.
I realised I sleep a lot nowadays. HAHA But that is not the point. o.O The above points are not that... NEVER MIND!
People suck ttm! I hate them. Because they are selfish. ****! ****! ****!
I'm keeping my blog private. AGAIN, I know. :D
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
1:10 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Hello! I'm here again. Strange eh? Sometimes I just don't wanna blog for days or even weeks. But now I'm blogging in two consecutive days. Oh, that's nothing because other people post everyday. I'm gonna talk about what had happened today.
WARNING: It's VERY boring. ^^1st Period of the day: ACC
It was ACC but we did a Higher Chinese test. It was okay? :D
2nd Period: ES & D
Boring as usual. Thought of script with other group members. ><
RECESS!!! ♥ ;)
Next was Math. Erm... I think I'm starting to like Math and that is VERY VERY VERY weird. I hated Math all my life. Idk why the sudden change. LOL And it was algebra that changed me? Remember that I used to hate algebra. HAH
EL: Got scolded by Mdm Rai because we didn't do her work as a class. Hey, she can't really blame us. Blame on the boring assignment! HAHA I don't like to do work I feel is boring.
Hist: Had another test. It was difficult but I couldn't give a damn although it's 100%. I was too tired. Seriously.
After school, we still had Math remedial and the whole time I was chiong-ing my EL reflections. HEHE After finishing my reflection, I completed E2. ^^
Now, I have loads to do. :x Script for the music project. STUPID! It's totally useless.
*sigh* Sick and tired of everything already.
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
6:54 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I believed I had been physically and emotionally abused. :x WTF I hate them. WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE??? You are just a... pathetic woman. You want my mum and sis to serve you. And strangely, they are willing to do so. But I'm so not like them. I HATE HER. Why must I help her do this do that. Worst to worst, my mum thinks that she treats me real good blahblahblah but that's not true. Can my mum actually see that she is talking behind her back, telling my grandma how a spendthrift she is. I know she earns quite a lot but does she have to run people down? And don't think that my grandma is so noble to feed me and my sis. My mum think she's great cause' she doesn't have to pay and we get feed. THIS SUCKS! You know how much I've been suffering because of everything? I have to swallow all that disgusting, bland food everyday. EVERY SINGLE DAY! And my mum expects me to go there on Sat too. That's impossible please! Just let me off and I would be happy. I don't wanna be there to make myself all that unhappy. Today was one good example. I just wanted to take a 30 min nap in my aunt's room. Okay, that room doesn't really belong to her. But now she is back because she gave birth. And I'm not allowed to sleep there now because I'm sick and she doesn't want HER kid to get infected or something. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. They disturb me from my sleep. SO JUST **** OFF! I'm really pissed off. I just wanted to lie there for THIRTY MINUTES! Goodness sake! It's only THIRTY MINUTES. And please... does the bed get infected when I sleep on it? NO! So what's the problem? Someone called me once and I continued sleeping. I think it was her. STUPID. I said I only wanted to sleep for a while. Then, she came for the second time, this time round I was really pissed. Cause' I can't get back to sleep when I wake up. And I know that. She said... Erm... Can you sleep in Uncle's room cause' if Baobei (Her stupid stubborn kid) gets sick, and my husband isn't in the country, what she is going to do? Does she think I care? No, I don't. I wish she could disappear. After a few hours of work, I'm damn tired already and she is telling me to sleep in my uncle's room?! And I don't like his bed. It's all rough. :( So, I woke up and wanted to finish my work. Grandma comes and nagged. DUH ~ She said the same thing her daughter said. I was annoyed so I told her to SHUT UP. And she said she was going to beat me. I replied her GO AHEAD IF SHE DARED. And I kept cursing her. (Sorry readers... I know you guys think I'm just a rude little brat but I'm not. They forced me to.) She OBVIOUSLY is biased. She only loves the small ones. And me, as the eldest, is always giving in to the younger ones. You know what? She even keeps the biscuits cause' she thinks that I always finish it. With my sis. Zzz. She is the one who eats lots. One weekend and biscuits can disappear. When I'm sick, who cares? She only knows how to nag. When HER (Referring to my dumb aunt.) daughter is all stubborn, everyone gives in. All it's all ****ing.
I HATE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And the worst thing is that my mum doesn't help at all. The only thing she would say is that they treat me real well and why am I going against them? OF COURSE THEY DON'T SHOW HER HOW BADLY THEY TREAT ME! GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!! I'm abused, abused, abused, abused, abused, abused, abused, abused, abused and abused. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( SO JUST **** OFF!!!
Fine, I know all of you just love to bully me. I won't let you despise me. I will do VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY well for my MYE to prove everyone WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!
You guys must know that I'm already very kind to them so stop forcing me... STOP FORCING ME! *backs off and threatens to jump off the building* STUPID! Okay, I feel better now. Thank you very reading this post. It's sorta vulgar?
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
9:08 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Hoho ~ I'm back. ;) Let me tell you guys what happened yesterday. :D
Went to Regine's house and it was sorta fun. LOL Pui Shan and Wei Feng was also there. Oh yeah, we slacked. Pui Shan was trying damn hard to pull us back to track but we can't help it. We just played and played. When we first entered her house, it was cozy. Seriously. :) Then, saw her brother. He is cute! And thin too. VERY thin. He's Veron? I don't know how to spell it. :x Anyway, we started very late as Wei Feng kept us waiting at the MRT but I didn't mind because Regine told him the wrong way to get to Serangoon MRT. HAH He was wearing a green shirt and the school shorts?! LOL And yeah, when I reached and saw Regine, I was like oh my gosh, you look so different. Yep. After that, we walked to her house. We took a LONGLONGLONG time to search for the pictures because Wei Feng were so engrossed with his anime. Zzz. Before that, we also had a hard time controlling Regine's brother but that was okay. :) Played songs while searching... We gossiped too. HAHA (You guys must know what had happened. *ahem*) LOL Time flew. We left... :( I forgot to tell you guys that Wei Feng brought a 1.5L bottle of Sprite to Regine's house. We thought he wasn't able to finish it but he finished it. THE WHOLE BOTTLE. BY HIMSELF. It was a miracle. And he only went to the washroom like two times? That was yesterday. :)
Stayed at home the whole of today. Went out for lunch just now. FULLFULLFULL. HAH Did quite a lot of Math today but I don't think it's enough because Regine did more. Hope that I can finish the whole of Chapter Three by today. Was aiming to do more but I don't think I can finish since it's four already. >< Wonder how I would fare for MYE. Especially English Compre? Tried so hard. *sigh* Really want a vacation. Listening to 21 Guns now. Think it's quite gay? But still okay. Gotta do more Math. BYE. :D
Love ya.
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
3:52 PM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Yoooooooooo! Had Bio test today. Might have flunked it because Regine and the others didn't really answer my doubts. After the Bio test, Regine, Quek Xue, Hui Jiung and I went to i-cafe for bubble tea. Strange though. Quek Xue doesn't like cold drinks because she would have brain freeze. LOL I wish I hated cold drinks. HAHA Reached grandma's house and ate biscuits. YUM YUM ~ Wrote a few words on Shi Yong Wen book and felt tired. Planning to do it later. Wonder if it would be too late. >< I want to finish my homework and prepare for MYE. But I'm distracted. :x As usual, people are ignoring me. Just that Zhongnuo had cut down his insults. YAY MH said she hated me. I wonder if it's true. I really don't want her to hate me. My relationship with everyone had soured. BAD Talking to Boon Kit now. He is not responding. He said I was too guai. Am I? Seriously, I lost myself. My character. As in everything about me. I change to accommodate other people. Why did I do that? I realised that it is so stupid. SO STUPID. Now, I'm trying to find myself. HAH Funny eh? I think I had lost my personality when I was in P4. When boys came along? Don't xiang wai, once again. Boon Kit said I must stand out of the crowd in order to be noticed. By the way, I think I had changed when I got into P1! ARGH So which is the real me??? Please... Tell me what I should do. All of you said I must be natural but how? I don't know which is the real me.
STOP READING THIS POST IF YOU FEEL CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!Back again. In a confused state of mind. I don't wanna be so guai also. But something is stopping me. What is it that is stopping me? Serena? I think so. Sometimes I want to raise up my hand and answer a question in class but I'm timid. TOO timid. I sorta despise myself. NO!!! I shan't do that.
Suggestions by Boon Kit?
1. Stop using emoticons on MSN because people might feel that I'm acting cute. (Must I change what I sorta like because of others' opinions? Anyway, do I really like the monkey emoticons?)
2. Change my display name on MSN because it is childish. (I don't want to! I'm always Agent Eeyore from AAAC. ;D)
3.
Try reading manga or watch anime. (Why? Does that make someone more cool? I HATE MANGA, FOR YOUR INFORMATION. No matter how hard I try.)
4. Learn how to dance. (I don't have flexible limbs and my whole body aches after dancing so... NO.)
It seems to me that I can't stand out of the crowd. No matter what I do. Impressing people or whatever. Why must I change? Isn't it good to be guai guai? P.S I think I'm writing like Abby Hayes now. LOL *sigh* Life is horrible because everyone expects something from you. Parents expect you to get good grades. Friends except you to... I don't know. :x Classmates expect you to not gossip even if they do. Cousins expect you to play with them. Oh yeah. Teachers... expect you to do your homework. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?! I'm freaking out, falling down and I... D:
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
7:04 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Woke up at 8 today because I had CIP. Was looking forward to it. ^^ Mum and Dad went praying but they came back earlier than expected. Dad took a LONG nap and when I was ready for school, I woke him up and he took me to school. I had wanted to take 135. >< When I reached school, I was totally confused. We slacked for like 1 hour and went for a break. Free lunch. XD Poor me... I shared a packet with Felix. Don't xiang wai hor. People like Sean polished off the whole packet of rice. LOL After lunch, we carried the instruments into the lorry? It was VERY heavy. :x For me. Oh yeah, we played Truth Or Dare when they practised. HAHA And the questions weren't that... *ahem* At least it didn't put me in a dilemma. LOL When we were on the bus... nothing much happened? Then we alighted and the teacher realised that we were at the wrong place... Had to walk to Suntec? Zheng Lao Shi came and put everything right. ^^ I ♥ her! When we reached Circle Line, it was chaotic. I saw Xuanyu! We took a long long time to settle down. Anyway, I took a video of our performance. ^^ We played 8 songs. :) Zheng Lao Shi said our performance wasn't that satisfying... Because we took a long time to settle down. And us, the helpers talked and talked... :( We got a lecture not a scolding. Define the difference. We went back to school and carried the instruments back to the CO room... Sean and the others got another packet of rice. Obviously Xin Rui was damn hungry because he skipped lunch. HAHA Then we left the school and went to Lucky Bread for bubble tea. I took 40 to Geylang to join everyone for lunch? LOL Late late lunch. ^^ Didn't eat much. There wasn't anything for me to eat anyway. They saw me and said why was my uniform so huge. Zzz. Apparently I bought a size bigger because my parents are kiasu. HAH I think that's all. I'm tired... BYEEEEEEEEEE ~
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
10:28 PM
Friday, April 2, 2010
Went to Aunty Mary's house today and ate a lot. :x I gained at least a few pounds? LOL I'm exaggerating. Before I left the house today... I wanted to wear slippers but then my freaky mum didn't allow. >< Was very cranky because I didn't get what I wanted. So I sulked for like the whole day. Went to Taka to buy present for Jayden. Mum and Sis shopped while Dad and I went to Kinokuniya. Read Sealed With A Kiss. It was damn nice. ;) Abby Hayes... Her situation is always similar to mine. :x Like all that fuss on handphones... Crushes? Hope I can finish my homework tomorrow because I have loads to prepare for MYE. By the way, I bought a Eeyore keychain. Agents, get one soon! Or else, envy me!
Another Pon & Zi (It's called Pon & Zi.) picture... According to Celine, it was popular when we were P4. That means a few years ago. Zzz. Anyway, yeah. :)
What the. Deleted a part of my post when I uploaded the picture and Dad was rushing me to get off the computer. Had to rewrite everything. >< Didn't have time to emphasise on the details of the book.
Tempted to change my blogskin...
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
10:03 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY! Firstly, I got tricked a few times. >< Chiqi and Li Hui told me that their buttons dropped and I believed. I went around borrowing safety pins. == Then, tricked by Rairai. She said half of the class failed EL Component 5... And my heart was pounding like crazy. My stomach practically... I can't find the right word. Never mind. It's Good Friday tomorrow! YAY Holiday... No need to wake up EARLY in the morning to bathe. == All Math Homework not done. Hate it. Hate algebra. It sucks. Going to Aunty Mary's house tomorrow for some celebration... I think her baby is one month old. Anyway... my mum said that we are going to get a present before going. I WANNA GO TO MINI TOONS! I wanna buy a handphone strap. Not really happy today. I don't know why. As usual, got my daily feed of insult... Zzz. Mei Hang was depressed. SHE IS ALWAYS DEPRESSED. == Felt so... Went through many thinking processes. By the way, I love Meta Cognition. ;) What was I thinking? I can't really remember. Had ACC today. Oh my gosh... I'm falling in love with Chinese. AGAIN. I feel that Zheng Lao Shi is really like Cai Lao Shi. Love them! ♥ She taught us so much... All the values. Her lessons are interesting. Like Cai Lao Shi's. XD Seriously, so much flashed through my mind when I was having ACC. Then, again, while watching a show, I felt... TODAY WAS WEIRD. Lol. Wanna watch 向日葵的约定 again. You know it's damn touching. *sigh* Suddenly feel so... ARGH Can't explain it. Nehmind.
Another cute-emo picture. I'M OBSESSED WITH THEM. I know. :D
I like Sirong's... 回忆是靠不住的 My memories of MBS and everything is fading. :( I want that lovely feeling to come back. 6 Joy'09 RAWKS TTM! YAY Erm... I think I have got short term memory. I cannot remember what I... ARGH Forget it. I have decided. To be natural because people like who I am. I don't care if people hates me or whatever. I'm not going to... Anyway... Gonna quote Bernice.
Boys are retarded creatures crap.
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
9:19 PM
MacBook
