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Mine
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts

Biography

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
MBS, CCHMS

Awesome;

I'm a hyper and random little girl who gets mood swings real often.

In the dictionary, awesome means very impressive and I'm awesome. I'm very impressive.

Even more awesome;

I love SHINee! ♥

I hate cockroaches and lizards!

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Heartstrings

MBS ♥
1 E'04!
2 E'05!
3 Bravery'06!
4 Dilligence'07!
5 Integrity'08!
6 Joy'09!
AAAC ♥
Wanqing Poo(h)!
Serena Piglet aka Serena baby!
Tin Yi Tigger!

CCHMS ♥
1 HM'10 aka Hyper Monsters!
Clique ♥
Hui Jiung!
Kek Ki!
Jia Hui 12!
Quek Xue!
Regine!
Natalie!
Mei Hang!
Steads ♥
Carmen!
Shiau Yu!
Xuanyu!
Zhen Qi!
CCHMSCO ♥
Si Rong!
Yun Qi!
Xin Wei!
Vanessa!
Carrin!
Section 2 ♥
-to be updated-

SHINee ♥
Onew!
Jonghyun!
Key!
Minho!
Taemin!


Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "cheese" or "chocolate"?

MacBook
iPod touch
6 Joy'09 Class Outing
1 HM'10 aka Hyper Monsters Class Outing
Outing with Serena Baby
Top Five in 1 HM'10
Six Points for O Level
Student Councillor *Under Probation


Tagboard


Linksboard

Meet the people I love♥

Chelsea
Felix
Jaymie
Li Xian
Quek Xue

Pastentries

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January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011


Creditorials

NEVER REMOVE THIS SECTION!

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Friday, July 30, 2010

I had actually planned to post a picture but I don't know why it's not working. -.-

Anyways... Erm, I don't know what to talk about so please bear with me. I know I've been groaning a lot. When I say a lot, I mean it, seriously. Regine has been really annoyed with me for being so... pessimistic? I never wanted to live this life. What I mean is, there isn't any purpose to survive. What are we fighting for exactly? Maybe you're thinking that I'm weird because sometimes, I'm so optimistic and yet, so pessimistic at times. Well, that's called mood swings. Mood swings, according to Chiqi and Jia Ming. They did worse things, okay? Maybe you wouldn't think of it. o.O I haven't been blogging because of the tests and deadlines going on. Everything's over, I guess, at least for the time being.

You guys would never imagine what happened to me. I find myself so pathetic, seriously. So pathetic. I don't know why I'm blamed for something which wasn't my fault. I mean, what's the problem with those freaking adults? They don't know what I want. I want my freedom! I'm no longer the small girl everyone knew. I'm big now. You, yes you. Don't try to deny that you didn't say that and try to push all the blame to me. What's worst, you scolded me and made me cry in public. You weren't giving me a choice, you were forcing me. I don't care what reasons you had, I just know that you were unreasonable. I'm never going to forgive you for this. Do you know what I mean by people don't understand my predicament? I told them about it and all they did was to tell me to chill. It doesn't help, at all. Sometimes, I feel like bursting into tears but I know I can't. I can't show other people that I'm weak. I'm a tough girl, okay? Nobody is going to protect me if I'm a weakling. Seriously, my dad doesn't give a damn. What else can I say? I was being scolded for something I didn't hear and you didn't help me. The world left me crying, all by myself. Aww, I'm crying all over again. Life sucks so much that I'm speechless. Yeah, speechless. What can I say? I can only accept this life of mine. I know I can't change it unless I grow up to achieve my goals and become a successful lawyer. * Don't read this post if you aren't emo because it's not for you. Don't try to tell me that it's okay because I know it's not. So what if you bought my phone? I can pay you back the money if you want. You can't confiscate it just like this. Do you know how hard my life was those few days. I felt that I was in hell. I tried to avoid you. Up till now, the hatred is still in me. You didn't give me a chance to explain. Did you hear me out? Did anyone? No.

I'm acting all tough in front of other people while building an invisible wall. I just wanna see who cares enough to break it. I don't think anyone would. Firstly, I'm not those who are popular because I'm not pretty or anything. I don't give a damn to it anymore, seriously. I'm tired of being insulted. All I can say is, "Thanks." I can't believe that I was emo for the rest of the day because Carrin insulted me. Sorry but I don't think she is that young either. People can be hurt by your words so please be careful with it. I'm someone who thinks a lot into things. Don't get my hopes high or break my heart. I can't afford to mend another heartbreak. Actually, it's not really considered as a heartbreak. It's just a feeling when I feel like giving up because everything's screwed. Like I said, no matter how hard I try, no one recognises me. Enough of trying. I shall wait for someone to discover me. I don't believe that I would stay as an unpolished gem forever. And, I'm sick of taking the initiative. Can someone just freaking show me that they care? I'm all tired. I can't do anything anymore.

I tried so hard to prepare for tests this term but what happened? EL Component 3, which was supposed to be held next week, was brought forward because of some qb people who talked in class. Why work so hard? I'm gonna fail my EL Component 2 after all. It's of no use. I don't have any sense of satisfaction when I get high marks because I know that someone would get better grades. Even if I'm top someday, everyone would forget about me. Well, that's the sad thing. Great, isn't it? (Sense my sarcasm?) Thanks for everything, heaven. I never wanted my life to be like this. I want to move house! I'm stuck in this tiny flat for many years. When am I moving back to Tampines? :( Now, I have to go to my grandma's house everyday. Not only that, I have to bear with her. Wthell is up with everyone? No one dotes on me anymore. Since Ah Ma died. When she died, I cried the hardest. I'm thinking of her again. We have no blood relations and yet she treats me better than my very own biological grandparents. Epic, eh? They are so biased! Even if I know that they are gonna get retribution for ill-treating me, I can't stop being pissed. My mum is also abusing me mentally. Why is everyone treating me like this? I'm trying my best to be kind to everyone, even Eileen. But I can't stop from being annoying by ******* like them. Here, I would like to tell my granny (Paternal Grandmother) to not to be sarcastic. I know you don't like me getting better grades than your precious grandson. What's the big deal? So what if I'm a girl? Girls can do anything guys can, okay? Aren't you a female? ._. I don't see why you must feed me with leftover coke he doesn't want anymore. I'm not your ******* dustbin! I'd enough of my life although Szeying said that it's never enough. I want this roller coaster to stop but I don't wanna die, duh. Nobody loves me. Sob. Enough of sobbing. Remember that I'm tough? I've decided to write more, like Szeying. :) I guess that's all. I'm tired of groaning. Finally!

Ps. Roller coaster, thanks for everything. I mean it.

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
8:38 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2010


Well, I must admit that I'm not someone who is that emo like SY. :P Argh, life sucks for me. :( Everything is due next week but I haven't touched most of them. Awesome, isn't it? Now, I don't have the time to think about rubbish. :D That's great. I wonder if I can sleep well tonight. I really want to. But I can't when some many things are weighing on my heart. I can't breathe. I guess I wasted thirteen years of my life, well, almost thirteen. I see no meaning in life. I don't mean that I'm going to attempt suicide or something. I'm just groaning, that's all. I won't give up on life. Never! Because I'm going to prove everyone wrong. :) But the problem is, I want to give up at times. It's too tiring. No one ever notices what I do. At least I think so. If you care, show me! No matter how hard I try, I would never be the best because someone, that someone would surpass me. Chinese is my best subject but what happens? I'm not the best and I know that I would never be. Don't try to comfort me or talk me out of it. Despite this, I'm still going to work hard for my dreams. ^^ GAMBETTE, EVERYONE!!

Sometimes, I feel that I'm kind of selfish. o.O I don't want to be like this but I just can't help it. Oh gosh, I'm listening to this all over again. Why? It reminds me of what I don't want to remember. It's the third time already. What is heaven trying to tell me? I don't want to find out. I don't have the energy, nor do I have to desire to find out. I'm too sick of "investigating". Lol!

Enough of depress. Let's have some fun now! :) Yesterday, I went out with Regine, Jia Hui 12 and Hui Jiung. It was a pity that Quek Xue couldn't go. Her mum didn't let her and I think she was sick. She was quite jealous of what we bought! Lol! Regine, Jia Hui 12 and I bought earrings and earphones. Exactly the same one too! All of us bought the same handphone strap. ♥ We took neoprints too! I had planned to reserve my first for the agents... Sadly, we didn't have an outing last June Holidays. We didn't really take lots of pictures, partly because we were lazy. ^^ We went to TM, Century Square and Tampines One. Yeah! I enjoyed yesterday loads. I was really happy. It has been a long time since I was that happy. What I want to say is, "CHEESEEE ~" No matter what life has in store for us, learn to accept it. (Okay, SY?)

Ps. I'm not living this life.

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
10:25 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2010

It's back to haunt me again. D:



Yesterday was the bazaar! I had lots and lots of fun! :D We sold ALL the Polar cakes! Incredible, right? o.O I thought that it wouldn't be popular but I guess I'm wrong. ^^ I'm glad that all our efforts paid off. Yay! I was in the third shift but I went to school at 10. I had wanted to go to the haunted house with MH but it wasn't open because of the rain. :( They had to move, you see. We went back to the food stall to help out till 11. Then, we walked around the school. Actually, some of the stalls were supposed to be at the field but they had to move due to the rain. It spoilt all the fun! Well, almost. :) It shouldn't be called the Bazaar-by-the-Lake but Bazaar-in-the-Canteen. Lol! That was what Regine said. Thank god that it stopped raining in the afternoon. I was damn busy! I had to show my grandmother and her friends around. Then, my granny. After that, Serena came. ♥ Thanks for coming. I appreciate that loads. :) Nobody from 6 Joy'09 came, I think. That was pathetic. Haha! I had wanted to take neoprints with Serena but I couldn't find the neoprints machine and her brother was rushing to go. I had blisters on my feet after all that walking! In short, I had fun! :D

I know that you would clear the misunderstanding soon, Li Xian! :D Cheer up! Don't be too troubled over it, okay?

Actually, I'm sort of troubled too... :( I feel so sad these few days. Let me tell you something. By doing homework/assessment, your troubles go away! It works for me! :) In this case, it benefits you while emoing. Aww, don't you agree?

Ps. It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again, 'cause of you, made it through every storm.

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
12:33 PM

Friday, July 9, 2010

Wthell. -.- I can't upload the picture. Forget it then. :D

Too emotional. My day had been. :( I had PE today and it was damn fun! ♥ Played volleyball and realised how fun it is. :) Dig, set and spike!! I shan't be so addicted to the computer anymore. I'm gonna participate actively in sports! Badminton, basketball, football netball and volleyball. :D

Chinese was fun. As usual. Surprisingly, 郑老师 praised the blog we made. Yay! She is always so encouraging. :)

Recess. -.- Stupid aunty selling malay food. I wanted to eat nasi lemak. They didn't have it and asked if I could have nasi brani? instead. She didn't tell me that it costs $2.50!! Argh! D: I've been trying to save more money. I wanna go out on 19 July! :D

Bio after recess. I'm starting to dislike Mrs Tan. I feel that Mrs Tan and Ms Tan are so biased! :(

"ONCE you fail to prove your worth, you are a goner." - Cheryl Mah

I'm serious. Everyone is given only one opportunity. Sad to say, I lost my chance to prove myself. Why must people judge others so quickly? I just don't get it. One living example, everyone thinks Li Hao is smart. Well, he might be... But everyone has their weaknesses! Why did people fail to see his? Fine, I shall accept this. I wasn't and never popular. I don't care about that but must people forget all about me? Sometimes, I even doubt my existence. :( (Hee, I didn't watch Shaman King so I can be emotional. :D) I felt like giving up but I'm reluctant to do so. Maybe somewhere, somewhere, someone acutally notices me. I have got no talents so I gotta work doubly hard. I must prove everyone wrong! ^^

E Lit was boring. Ranita Datta was actually talking to the walls because no one was listening. LOL! Well, I wasn't. I don't like her teaching method. Full stop. :D

English? Had CA2 Component 2. It was okay since I prepared for it. I can't say that I'm gonna score very well but I hope so.

Had xiaozu after lunch. Sigh, it was so depressing. D: Photo taking today and I was only told yesterday. -.- I think I looked like a retard because I rushed there and the wind was blowing my hair in the wrong direction all the time. Forget about it. I must really work harder, seriously. CCHMSCO is lagging behind and we are still slacking! People are surpassing us. NO!! :( But it's the truth. 谢老师 flared up today. Freaking scary manzxc! I have never seen him so angry before. According to Si Rong, he had never scolded the xiaozu before. We broke the record! I mean the 高音笙 but we can't really shift all the responsibility to them because I'm not that good either. I'm inspired, really. I know I have to keep my passion burning. Never let it die.

Okay, I'm gonna do a quiz now. I got it from Celine's blog. :D

I avoid some people on purpose
I’ve thought about cheating
I hate the way I look most of the time
I actually like the way I look most of the time
I’ve been swimming in an ocean
I’ve been swimming in a lake
I have a sibling
I have pets
I’ve been on vacation recently
I love meeting new people
I am insanely shy
I’m on a sports team
My best friend is a boy
I play music
I don’t remember the last time I mailed a letter
I talk on the phone (almost) every night
I drink milk almost every day (I just started drinking milk.)
I’ve kissed someone in a bathroom
I’ve kissed someone at school
I’ve kissed someone I just met
I’ve kissed a good friend
I like to read (Sometimes. :P)
I like to watch tv
I could care less about video games
I hate my mom and dad
I’ve had a crush on someone for 5+ years
I’ve never asked someone out
I can touch my nose with my tongue
I love pizza
I actually love going grocery shopping
I love to travel
I’ve been to another continent
I wish I had time to watch more movies
I miss being a little kid
I’ve been to a public pool recently
Summer is my favorite time of the year
Winter is my favorite time of the year
I have a favorite holiday (Well, sort of.)
I have a favorite holiday other than Christmas
I’ve been to a concert recently
I drive
I have my own car
My room is almost always messy
I’m listening to music right now
Music helps me work
The last person I texted was a boy

I want a new phone really bad
I love cartoons
The last thing I drank was water
I used to play with barbies
I collect something (or used to)
I’ve been to a carnival recently
I know what syncopation is
I need to charge my phone
I have a huge crush on someone right now
I’ve kissed someone within the last 24 hours
I’m in my pajamas
I have to go to school tomorrow
I need to clean something
I’ve hurt myself on purpose
I’ve thrown up on purpose
I’ve broken a bone
I’ve eaten something weird
I’m an extremely picky eater
I’ve been out to eat recently
I love going to the mall shopping
I hate big groups
I remember the last party I went to
I’m on the phone right now
I’m watching tv right now (Not really.)
I’m eating right now
I’m on the phone, watching tv, and eating right now
People say I’m funny
People say I’m pretty
I’ve been told that I have gorgeous eyes
I need new clothes really bad
My hair is up right now
I need to shave my legs
I remember the last time I went to the doctor
I have braces
I actually use my locker at school

I get good grades
I have a MySpace
I have a Facebook
I showered last night
I spy with my little eye something that is green
I spy with my little eye something that is round
I spy with my little eye something that is broken
I’ve had surgery
Someone I know has died
Someone I know has had cancer
It’s past my bedtime
I’ve moved before
I’ve moved 4+ times
I’ve gotten something removed
People tell me that I have good hair
People tell me that they like my clothes
I wish I had some money right now
I have a job
I need a job
I actually got a stupid class ring
I’m listening to someone talking right now
I wish I could talk to the boy I like right now
I’ve kissed someone in front of my parents
I’ve kissed someone on New Year’s
I love Halloween
I remember the last time I tripped
I can see a picture of me from where I’m sitting
I can see my reflection from where I’m sitting
I’m kinda scared of the dark
It’s hard to sleep with the door open
It’s hard to sleep without a blanket
It’s morning
I played soccer when I was little
I played basketball when I was little
My ears are pierced

My belly button is pierced
I plan on going to college
I plan on getting married

I plan on having some kids
I babysit
I still get an allowance
I curse a lot
I got so drunk last night
I’ve been to a wedding recently
I’ve met someone special on vacation
I have an accent
I’m completely white
I know someone who has been home-schooled
I know someone in a band
I can sing really well
I can dance really well
I’ve never slow danced with anyone
I suck at spelling
I suck at math
I recycle
I am pro-choice
I know some rednecks
I want to get a tattoo
I want to get a new piercing
I hate MTV and VH1
I miss an ex
I still love an ex
I’ve slapped someone
I’ve punched someone
I’ve been told that I have a nice butt
I wish I could lose some weight
I can play the guitar
I can speak another language (Like Chinese? ♥)
I am fluent in another language

I can play the piano
I’ve been told that I can’t dance
I’m a cheerleader
I have a sweet tattoo
I have a sweet facial piercing
I need to practice something
I want to go to Mexico
I want to go to Canada
I’ve traveled across the country
I live on the east coast
I went to the beach last summer
I remember the last time I was insanely sunburned
I like to waste time
I like to sleep
I think I’m going to get asked out soon
I keep a journal
I don’t remember the last dream I had
My first kiss kinda sucked
I think smoking cigarettes is gross
I’m wearing something that belongs to someone else
My mom fixed the last meal I had
I’ve never gotten my nails done
I should be doing homework right now
I’m adopted
I love sappy movies
I love horror movies
I love musicals
I’ve seen a broadway show
The last person I hugged was my mom/dad
All of my grandparents are alive
I miss my boyfriend
I haven’t talked to my best friend all day
People tell me that I’m short
Sometimes my socks don’t match
I can’t wait till my birthday
I’m a procrastinator
I’m not like everyone else
I like strawberries

I like thunderstorms (Not when I'm out.)
Someone’s mad at me right now
I hate when people are rude
I’m an optimist
My first relationship ended badly
I love when boys hold doors open
I’ve kissed 2+ people in one day
I’ve had a boy sleep over at my house
I’ve been caught doing drugs
I’ve been caught cheating
I haven’t been to Disneyland/Disneyworld
I’ve passed out from drinking
I get angry easily
I’m laid back
I hate most girls
I love getting new shoes
I hate Chinese food
I don’t remember the last time I was grounded
I’ve been in love before
I’ve been cheated on
There are certain songs that remind me of my ex
I gave someone their first kiss
I straighten my hair more often than i should
I’ve been to a funeral this year
I am insanely hungry right now

I liked this survey a lot
I should probably do something productive now


My Personality:
I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic. (That's what they say.)
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
(Maybe?)
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.
(Hmm, not really but I keep it clean.)

My Appearance:
I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.

Relationships:
I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
(Sort of?)
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:
I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.

I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.


Music:
I listen to country.
I listen to some pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.

I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:
I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair:
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.

I’ve had/want dreadlocks.


School:
I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.

That's all for today, I guess. :)

Ps. I got over you!

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
9:33 PM

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Second post of the day! :D

I'm posting again because I was inspired by Fiona. Well, sort of. Actually, not really. o.O

Fiona!! Stop thinking about him, okay? He is not worth it. Sometimes, I think guys love giving girls false hope. Visit Fiona's blog, people! Hey, I'm helping her to advertise. :) I can't believe that he said those two words to you. He is not the mushy kind. Yeah, seriously.

Enough talking about these. I almost died. Something went wrong... We couldn't see the post. I don't think we are gonna win the competition. :( Everything was done the last minute. Tomorrow, I'm having English CA2 Component 2. I need to do better! :D

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
10:51 PM

Argh, I don't wanna sit with Sally Lam! D: Why must Mrs Tan change our seats?! Okay, she changed our seats a week ago but it's only now I realise that I can't sit with her! I don't know what's her problem and I don't wish to know. I just want her to get off my back! I know I have been telling people to not call others bitches but I really feel like slapping her. She is rich but she doesn't have to show off, okay? I can't stand her! Not only she is extra, she is totally bitchy. (Sorry.) She thinks that she is the greatest in this world. -.- I don't think I can survive for the next semester... Just change our seats, Mrs Tan or Ms Tan! I've been so freaking unlucky... :( Maybe Eileen is better than her. At least, Eileen tries to be better although she fails most of the time. :D

Sometimes, I feel like giving up on everything. No one cares anyway. Even if I do really well in something, no one would remember. I'm just someone small in the class. Really small. I was never in the popular crowd. I don't wanna be but must everyone forget about me? :( I really hate this... I'm trying my best to do well but who sees it? Well, it's useless, you see. I know I shouldn't give up because escaping is not the way out. How can I prove my worth? Teachers only call on the popular people and forget me. Why? Okay, that is why I must work harder. I gotta beat Tan Li Hao! Actually, he is not really smart. Haha! Okay, maybe he is. :D I know that he is very hardworking but I'm gonna work harder. I can't give up just like this.

"Some give up their determination when they have almost reached the goal; while others; obtain a victory by exerting, at the last moment, more vigorous efforts than ever before." - Ms Tan Shu Hui's chemistry teacher in Junior College

I'm not so stupid to give up when I'm reaching my goal. Say gambette!! :D I got my determination and passion back! Yay! I know I can do it! Thanks to PSLE, I've grown. I don't know why, after PSLE, I felt erm... I was really upset because all the agents got to go for OPAC except for me. I learnt something when I was standing up after falling hard. Really hard. I'm not going to waste my life anymore. I've to do something impactful. :) Before that, I have to be a good student and do my homework. I gotta prepare for my English test tomorrow! By the way, we live for ourselves! :D

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
5:43 PM

Monday, July 5, 2010

I won't be uploading photographs I took at the class gathering today.

Hmm, what can I talk about? Oh yeah, I'm on a music craze recently. :D I guess I'm influenced by Celine and that is a good thing. (Y) I envy her for her iPod nano! If I were to get one, I'm so gonna buy the pink one. ♥ We were talking about the iPod shuffle and I realised that it's so cool! You know what? We control the shuffle by using the earphones! Oh gosh, I miss my earphones... Why did I lose it? :( I'm dying to get new ones. Or rather, I can't live without them. Err, I would have died then. LOL

School was okay. It's just that I can't stop slacking. :( My passion died! So I gotta revive it... I haven't been going for recess because I wanna save money and go on a diet. :P Sigh, I look forward to school... Then, I dread it. It's so... contradictory.

Forget it, I'm not going to wait anymore. How can people smile and laugh when it's killing them inside? And pretend that everything is okay. o.O

The lyrics of Like A Knife by Secondhand Serenade:

(I got addicted to this song! :D)

I did a lot, I know you say, I've got to get away.
The world is not yours for the taking is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you but promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go, you'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away.
'Cause today, you walked out of my life.
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife.
I'm not living this life.
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain.
And no matter where I go, it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories, both perfect and in pain.
And all I wanna do is love you.
But I'm the only one to blame.
Because today, you walked out of my life.
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife.
I'm not living this life.
But what do I know if you're leaving?
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever.
These scars will stay forever.
And these words, they have no meaning, if we cannot find the feeling, that we held onto together.
Try your hardest to remember.
Stay with me.
Or watch me bleed.
I need you just to breathe.
Because today, you walked out of my life.
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife.
I'm not living this life.

Nice eh? :D Before I forget, Kimi Ni Todoke ROCKS!! It's so damn sweet... You know when Kazehaya has this urge to protect Sawako when she is bullied? Aww... :) I'm gonna watch more of it later this week. I gotta rush to prepare for my Math quiz. -.-

Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
1:37 PM