Saturday, August 14, 2010
"Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."
Really? o.O Maybe. Envy really hurts. I've experienced it before. Now, I'm still experiencing it. I'm trying my best to forget it and concentrate on studying. Everyone is capable of reminding me about things I don't want to remember. Does anyone ever notice that I'm hurt by all these crap? Stop talking about it, will you? I'm already struggling to forget everything and here you are, reminding me. I tried so hard but it didn't work. Should I believe Xuanyu that I still have a second chance? It's not only this that is hurting me. I still have to act like I don't mind and continue to try to do better.
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It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you. But it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind."
Yup, I so agree with that. I've decided to not care anymore though. In the end, everyone is going to hurt you. Family, teachers, friends and classmates or even people you don't even know hurt you. What can you expect?
Am I going to fail Geog? Do you know that I can't afford to? Thanks, Hannah, for knowing it so well. I can't suffer any more mental torture. It's horrible.
Know why I posted this picture? I feel that it describes me very well. I'm a lonely balloon sitting at the side of the road which doesn't catch any attention. A balloon bursts with a prick. I'm hurt easily, you see. Get it?
I was damn pissed off yesterday because I got scolded for nothing. Again. All my dad did was to continue driving. I remembered how he shouted at me when we got off the car. Hey, it wasn't my fault at all. You guys call and said you reached school already. Nobody expected that we would be so late. The estimated time was 10.30 but it wasn't confirmed. What's the problem with you? Did you ask for my opinion? Apparently, you didn't. You only knew how to scold me. You only waited for me for an hour! Think about how long I waited for you when you shopped. If you don't know how to spare a thought for people, shut up. I worked so hard yesterday and I was very tired already. Fine, you didn't go there to support me. I don't really care. Must you scold me when it wasn't even my freaking fault? And, only irresponsible people like you 拍拍屁股就走了. Not me. I don't want to give a damn anymore. Thanks so much for ruining my life.
Ahh! I'm damn stressed out now! I need a second chance. I have to score very well for Geog!
Ps. I'm so tired.
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
9:25 PM
