
Is it true that after every thunderstorm, there would be a rainbow? Well, I don't agree. Although it would be sunny again after the thunderstorm, you never know when it's going to start again. I'm tired of repeating the same thing again and again. So what if life sucks? You can't do anything about it. I'm not being optimistic here. I just want to do something big in life, before I die. I know that it's hard. I will try.
Regrets. It's a strong word, huh? I regretted letting my head rule my heart when I bought my earphones. I regretted totally. Really. But, that isn't the point. The point is that I didn't cherish what I had and now, they are gone. Gone. Yeah. That means, I would never have them again. Actually, I don't think I'm as emo as SY. You can't imagine how emo she is. Perhaps, that isn't called emo. It's when your heart is already dead. Dead. My heart is partially dead, not totally. I still have this wish to cling onto life. I still want to continue living, although I don't know what it is for.
Thanks for everything, Heaven. I mean it. Because of these obstacles, I'm growing up to become someone better. Who doesn't make mistakes or fail in life? There is always some time to hit rock bottom. It's just when you're going to. I've been really upset these days but I'm going strong. It's okay. (I'm kind of disgusted by what I'm writing now.) I might not seem to be so mature in my thinking but I am. Yup.
Everything changed. I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change. (Does this sound familiar, SY?) I'm trying very hard to get that feeling back. The feeling when 6 Joy'09 was so... :) I miss 6 Joy'09. Aww. People change. This is definitely true. I changed too. I think I grew up. ^^
He also changed. That's a sad thing to me. I don't like this at all.
Ps. You would never get enough.
Cheryl ♥ Agent Eeyore
9:14 PM